can't deny anymore....

today , when PJ , i play badminton with chinlee ...
after 30 minutes ,
i go toilet with chinlee and left the badminton ball on the floor...

when we returned , we found that our ball was dissapear...
a group of gangster standing at the place we played just now...
chinlee ask them whethere they saw the ball anot..
they say they saw nothing...

i was nervous because i know teacher will scold us..
when teacher want keep back the ball ,
chinlee admit to teacher that we lost the ball...
then teacher keep on scolding us...

when teacher saw those gangster ,
teacher ask them whethere they saw the ball..
but they keep on deny...

i become more nervous...
but suddenly , elaine went beside a girl..
and take the badminton ball directly from the girl pocket...

i was like , wa ..she so brave...

i told my sis about how me and elaine been through...
my sis suggest me to clarify to elaine everythings..
the reason why i would challange elaine
why i would tease elaine...
believe or not is her own decision...

ya, thats right i think i really should clarify to her...
perhaps , the result is not that good as i imagined...
perhaps she'll tell everythings to manda...
and the result will become more worst..
al least i've try to keep this friendship...

ok..i will find a day and clarify everythings to her...

the winner takes it all...

I don’t want to talk
About the things that we gone through
Though it hurting me
Now is history
I play all my cards
And that’s what you done too
Nothings more to say
No more aces to play

The winner takes it all
The loser standing small
Beside the victory
That’s her destiny
We are togethere...
Thinking I belonged here
I figured it made sense
Building me a fence
Thinking I’ll be strong there
But I was a fool
Playing by the rules

The god may throw the dice
Their mind as cold as ice
And someone way down here
Loses someone dear
The winner takes it all
The loser has to fall
It’s simple and it’s plain
Why should I complain?

Somewhere deep inside
You must know I thinking you..
But what can I say?
Rules must be obeyed
The judges will decide
The likes of me abide
Spectators at the show
Always staying low

The game is on again
A Best friend or just a friend?
A big things or a small?
The winner takes it all
I don’t want to talk
Cause it makes me feels sad
But I understand
I apologize
If it makes you feel bad

thanks..buddy

Today is my big day!!!

Having some happy moments with Puiyee…
Thanks for accompany when my birthday…
Having so much fun with her…

Thanks for Shienlin…
I receive her call …
She said she brought me a present from Penang…
At that moment, I was happy…
Because she still remember my birthday..

I also receive Sirin message…
Thanks also…

Actually I also receive a gorgeous present in my birthday…
To let me know who my true friend is and who is not…
And let some of my friend be back to me…
I’m overwhelmed with gratitude…

Thanks for the sender…

THE GOD

All In Vain..

I oughtn’t to believe what she says ….
Her apologize was just a plan…
Why I would believe her…
I’m a damn stupid girl….
Just end about it…
Although I’m all in moody since I argue with her…
But I just get better in 3 days…
Perhaps I was not taking a big hope for this friendship from the beginning...Until now
This is the choice that I decide right for this friendship…
But I was sad for me and Elaine’s friendship…
Many misunderstand formed between me and her…
I know these misunderstand can never be broken ….
I was regretting the choice I make for me and Elaine – spoil me and Elaine’s friendship to preserve me and Manda’s friendship ….

When Pui Yee told me Elaine want to transfer school …
I was like… all in vain…
At that moment I really hope I can tell Elaine…

“Thanks for the joy you brought in my life…although I know it would not come back again, but I really enjoy the happy moments..I apologize everything that I said, I did, sorry ….. All I did is just want to let you notice…. Perhaps I’m not your best friend…just a normal friend in your life which brings a lot of trouble … a lot of annoyance to you… sorry… lastly I just want to tell you , from the day we know each other’s…until now…even when the days we argue… YOU’RE MY BEST FRIEND…”

This was all my heartfelt words…

the ending....

i really can't believe this is the ending...

the ending of our gang...

but i know...i should accept the fact..

from this ending ...i know...

who is treat me with true heart..who is not..

anyway, this is the end of our gang...

and the end of me and manda's friendship...

i would never forgive her...

BYE! 1 KENANGA GANG!

my heart cripple by the vain..

today , when i reach school ..

i saw seokyi sit with sk them...

and i know what happened..

after 10 minutes , chinlee arrive...

and i told her go with seokyi..

but she said she wan to stay here..

and we had discuss about seokyi...

puiyee cried..

she said she dunno what's going on..

why seokyi will change?

and i going to change class...

i really cannot bear to stay in this class!

chinlee company me to office and find teacher...

and i tell teacher i wan to transfer class..

then teacher just give me many UNREASONABLE-REASON!

at that moment...i really wanna cry out!

chinlee saw it ...

and she just hold my hand tightly...

when i go back class...

i lose control and cry....

chinlee comfort me..

and she said if teacher dun let me transfer class..

she will accompany to transfer school...

thanks..chinlee..

really feel glad to have you as my best friend...

and also shienlin...

puiyee..

thanks!

lonely time..

thursday , i didn't talk to her...not even a single words...

at class , no one talk to me ..

everyone was in their time of joy..

and i was in my time of agony...

recess , i told puiyee everythings ...

once i tell her...

i have shed my tears...

and i lose control...

i dun wan let people to know i cried...

and i know i can't stop my tears...

i make a decision - GO BACK HOME..

i think i was going to be crazy...

puiyee help me to take my bag...and company me to wait...

teacher thinking i was in pain...

ya i was in pain..my heart...

i wonder why my friend...seokyi..manda...chinman..sirin..

has changed untill...

maybe they changed since long time ago...

but i just realize...

should i?

finally my predict is correct..

she really hurt me..

everytimes...

why she want to lie to me?

why?

perhaps we shouldn't good back...

although we good back..

we have nothing to say anymore...

and she won't care my feelings anymore..

she having fun with her best friends...

and i'm going to be alone...

i'm thinking should i be back normal friends with her?

should i?

argue..argue..and argue

argue ..argue ....argue...

everyday we sure argue at lease 1 time..

i really tired...

just a small matter we also will ..ARGUE

because i very care bout wat she think..

the way she treat me..

haiz...

i just wan to know her blog..

but thn?

she also din giv me...

fine...