i're good back with her...

i'm happy...

and i found out the truth..

the reason manda betray me is because of chinman..

chinman seduce her to do so..

although i good back with her..

i think i will make provision..to let her hurt

like ...

she always din keep her promise..

she always dun care my feelings...

she dun even think i'm important to her..

she dun even post on her blog that i've good back with her

if cs or zy...

she sure post...

ya..i have no value to u....

and she said she will tell me somethings tomorrow..

haiz..i reallyduncare anythings..

i just wan her to care my feelings...

thats all..

but shw can't do it...

she won

suppress...

i just saw her blog...

and i was very confused...

why she can change from this to that in a short moment?

i was wondering...

is that the truth?

at school she try to take away all my friends....

let me alone...

try to scheming me to get me in many trobles..

she can even try to be friendly to elaine khoo(her enemy)

if she is be friendly to elaine with the true heart is ok..

but she is not...

OH GOD!what's the hell going on?

why she can be so fake?

why she can got a nasty mind?

i was regret to confide to her everythings..withough reserve

she ask me why can't i put faith on her?

so i try to put great faith in her...

but the result is...she betray me....

i really dunno what to do...

but i can bear everythings....

the way she spite to me...

the way she acted in collusion with my friends...

the way she saying nasty things about me..

although i good back with her..

perhaps is just friend..

a very normal friend....

cause i won't let her to hurt my feelings anymore..

i'm lost...

i'm lost....

yesterday i have a body check...

the doctor find out my lungs got problems...

somemore...the doctor found out my backbones also have problem...

the doctor offer me to have X-ray...

and check out my backbones...

if my backbones getting more serious...

maybe doctor will have operate on my backbones....

and my friends...

o god...

i'm lost...

i was like in the railway..

i cant foresee the train will stop in which station...

is same like life...

u cant foresee what will happen in your life...

justice will prevail!

chinman and shienlin had changed...

finally my predict is right....

i believe shienlin , chinman will awake...

today i have a long chat with shienlin...

we confide to each others...

finally shienlin realize that sirin had been seduce by manda ....

finally she awake..

i was agape ...

since manda had changed into a scheming person...

she've been scheming to get me in many trouble...

she try to make everyone hate me...

my friends...my teacher...

why she wan to do so? why??

i really cant recognize her anymore...

i believe that finally sirin will also awake..

but it need times...

justice will prevail!

i went back to my ordinary and wonderful life...

a life which full of happiness ....

there's was friends that i can i trust...

chin lee ,seokyi ,puiyee...

for chinman,manda

you 're just a cur , officious bastard!

who only know how to injure people feelings..

who only know how to scheming to get people in trouble...

who only know how to take advantage...

who desert you in time of adversity...

please get out of my way!

i hate you!

phrase in "bride war"

'bride war' wat a gorgeous movie ...

this movie is about friendship...

this movie is the "one" who accompany for a whole sad night...

and this is the phrase in this movie who i wanna share..

"sometimes in life , there really are bonds that formed can never be broken..

sometimes , you really can find that one person who will stands by you no matter what

maybe you'll find it in a spouse..

but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime..

the one person who know you sometimes better than you know yourself..

is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.."

friendship?

today , when i reach school..
i quickly ran to basketball court..
and find chinman...

she was not appreaciate it...
she just answer me with a annoying voice when i talk to her...

i was depress...

at first i was thinking...

chinman will stand by me no matter what...
but she is not....

she started to talk to me in a unpolitely way....
when manda arrive school...

she dun even talk to me a single words...


i was sad....depress



after that we having exame...
but i was not in mood...
because of manda...

suddenly chinman told me that...

manda told her ..yesterday when scy call me...
is very bored when i chat with her on phone..
i do math while chatting with her....

when i hear that..my heart was break...

i cant believe those words will come from her ....
she promised me she will not breake my heart anymore...
and she ask me to gave her a chance to built up my heart...

but now what she did?

suddenly i felt like...

what is friendship?

after that when recess i told manda i go basketball court study with chinman...
she just say ok la , i wan go canteen..
i know...she won't care me anymore....

and that 20 mins, i have a long chat with chinman...
i told chinman that i'm depress with friends...

chinman answer me : did u notice that , is not they change..mayb u change also...

u know..her words was a dig on me...

i'm hurt...

ok..exame is over..

i try to talk to manda...
she just answer me one sentences...

thn i keep on asking her what is the matter..
she say nothing....

it hurt...

although u dun wan talk to me..
but pls just give me a reason...
just a reason...

i sacrifice many to this friendship...

because of manda...
i let go elaine and my friendship...

because of manda ...
i dun even talk to chinman more than 10 sentences a day...

but i think it's worthy...

but now what she did it to me?

i'm depress....

moody...

yesterday i was in moody...

i'm wondering why will i did that to her...

why?WHY?

i found the answer...

because i care her...

when i listen leona lewis's song...

my tears start to drop out...

and i lose control...

i just let my tears drop..drop...drop...

and i'm wondering should i gave her a call?

or should i'm not?

if she treasure our friendship..

surely,she will called me...

but this time is different...

around 11 o'clock , i gave her a call...

her sound was happy..it doesn't look sad or moody...

perhaps,she put down our friendship....

then i try explain...

i keep on explaining...

finally, she said she forgive me...

but her sound doesn't look cheerful...

i know, our friendship gone..

and i watch "bride war" alone...

until midnight...

i found a phrase in "bride war"...

"one day,you will found a person who will stand by you no matter what"

i only remember that....

is she is the one?

obviosly not...

i really hope for she will be the person who stand by me no matter what...

but it's just a dream...

it'll all get better in time..

you didn't notice that ...

you mean everythings to me ...

although i didn't show in physical way...

i'll be ok...

althought i can't lost you...

it's gonna hurt when it heals too...

but

i believe...

it'll all get better in time ..

even thought i feel the pain...

i gonna smile..

is it easy to just put you out of my life?

no ..is not easy...

but time will heal it...

no matter how hard it is..

i will be fine..

yes..i will.

puiyee...thanks for stand by me forever...

thanks alot...

i'm overwhelmed with gratitude...

thanks god i found you....

confused...

sometimes i was confused by the way she treat me...

i dun think we are intimate anymore..

did u feel sorry for not keep ur words?

obviosly not!

perhaps,i have no value to u..

no position in your heart...

perhaps we should become normal friend...

from now on , all about ur memory will fade away from my mind..