friendship?

today , when i reach school..
i quickly ran to basketball court..
and find chinman...

she was not appreaciate it...
she just answer me with a annoying voice when i talk to her...

i was depress...

at first i was thinking...

chinman will stand by me no matter what...
but she is not....

she started to talk to me in a unpolitely way....
when manda arrive school...

she dun even talk to me a single words...


i was sad....depress



after that we having exame...
but i was not in mood...
because of manda...

suddenly chinman told me that...

manda told her ..yesterday when scy call me...
is very bored when i chat with her on phone..
i do math while chatting with her....

when i hear that..my heart was break...

i cant believe those words will come from her ....
she promised me she will not breake my heart anymore...
and she ask me to gave her a chance to built up my heart...

but now what she did?

suddenly i felt like...

what is friendship?

after that when recess i told manda i go basketball court study with chinman...
she just say ok la , i wan go canteen..
i know...she won't care me anymore....

and that 20 mins, i have a long chat with chinman...
i told chinman that i'm depress with friends...

chinman answer me : did u notice that , is not they change..mayb u change also...

u know..her words was a dig on me...

i'm hurt...

ok..exame is over..

i try to talk to manda...
she just answer me one sentences...

thn i keep on asking her what is the matter..
she say nothing....

it hurt...

although u dun wan talk to me..
but pls just give me a reason...
just a reason...

i sacrifice many to this friendship...

because of manda...
i let go elaine and my friendship...

because of manda ...
i dun even talk to chinman more than 10 sentences a day...

but i think it's worthy...

but now what she did it to me?

i'm depress....